Hello!

yeah..i did blog ok! just that i didnt publish it..hehe..*blink innocently again*

Queen Vic said it in a almost half ordering tone: ' go and update the blog'
haha

Seriously, i was imagining myself blogging about what I m feeling recently..to an extent it will be like as if i m repeating..n I wish i can express myself clearly enuff..

There are 4 types of people in this world:
1. People who do not know that they dont know
2. People who do know that they dont know
3. People who do not know that they do know
4. People who know that they know

Which group do u think u r in?
It reali pathetic for grp 3 ppl..becuz of unrealistic fear, stress and pefection paralysis- fear of making mistakes.
Too afraid and is unwilling to look like a fool anymore. Not wanting to try any more in fear of being mocked at.
Or perhaps, it something more. Unrealistic expectation- that so called beautiful dream. Has it become a burden or too much of a difference that one must leap over?
Should i stop dreaming? But wont I lose my motivation in life...and it will not be a pretty scene.

Emo-ing in process? This is simply what i felt.

Well, I m actually not in any state to complain, apparently. I've seen and know of ppl who are bearing with their struggles too..yeah. I seem so much fortunate, so i should be happy. Oh, crap! It like as if i m deprived of my right to be down, emo, and even to cry. We always think we know how people think and feel, or rather we assume and take it as a fact. But I would say no one truely understand what another person is undergoing...hmm..perhaps not even ur loved ones. Perhaps this explains why people do feel lonely even being loved.

this song by: wu jia hui ( hmm, sry that it is not in chi)
entittled yuan zu li ( far distance, ? haha)

我终于开始庆祝自己不去想你 我终于开始鼓励自己不爱你 但思念无时无刻不停歇 活生生像中了你的邪 于是自言自问 自答十年以后 寂寞还是依然 * 猜不透 为何我们距离那么多 永远只是开花不结果 爱了一个人 我赔了自己 又卖了灵魂 猜不透 为何距离总是那么多 不想只是开花没结果 失去你的人 我赎回灵魂 我找回自己 又有什么意义 (有什么意义) 于是我开了香槟庆祝失去了你 把整盒香烟抽完麻醉我自己 但掉落在桌布上的眼泪 嘲笑自己烛光太浪费 于是没有疑问 就算十年以后 寂寞还是依然

The lyric kind of shock me esp this line whn i 1st heard it..very dramatic ( the bolded line)

Actually i've been relatively down these past few months. oh, dun worry..it's nobody fault..cuz it all my fault..cuz i cant be optimistic or finding it v hard too..

Perhaps, it's just growing pain..and this will too pass.

I really wish i can accept this..and continue to move on, irregardless of what i feel and think.
I do love to indulge in such thoughts, don't I? And it maybe a bad habit, i cant kick off. Or it's my nature, now u realise.