最近， 天气变换的好快，人生也是否如此？
我似乎也受影响， 心情时好时坏。
压力。很多人常说： you' re too stress, chill!
但有没有人愿意停下来，分析压力的来源？接着， 根正它呢？
我苦恼于为何我长大了 ，但致亲的人却老了 ，像是要离我而去。
以前 ，总盼往能快点长大和大哥哥大姐一起玩乐 ，但时间总是不够 。
梦想 ，一再的破裂 ，就像是被刮了一巴掌 ，被泼冷水， 人们狠不得让我了解这世界的现实。
他们说都是为了我好。但我快窒息了， 没人知道。才会显得焦绿不安。
好失望， 我令你们失望， 我也失望， 你们并不了解我。 还是 ，我表达能力太差 ，还是根本就不想了解呢？
你若是讨厌我 ，我 一定更讨厌自己 ，为何那么麻烦？
是啊 ，我太懦弱了， 牛角间， 非得把自己逼入绝境， 为何？
难道 ，我并非真心的渴望快乐？听起来有点怪 ，但是有可能的， 我习惯把悲愤化成力量。
如今，我想好好的利用假期 ，找回能被感动的心， 真实的笑容。
大自然， 海 ，家 ，瑜伽， 能让我呼吸新鲜空气 ，让我心旷神奕 啊！
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Busiest last 3 weeks of sch days
PW deadline is so damn rushing.
Math assignments are piling up.
Chi essays undone but favourite novels are being read.
How i wish i have more time.
God bless me.
A little insecure for op and wr.
Wish to have everyone's cooperation.
SH thanks you, for making her dreams come true.
Thank you.
Math assignments are piling up.
Chi essays undone but favourite novels are being read.
How i wish i have more time.
God bless me.
A little insecure for op and wr.
Wish to have everyone's cooperation.
SH thanks you, for making her dreams come true.
Thank you.
Friday, October 3, 2008
生活点滴
爸爸说新眼镜让我看起来更成熟，觉得我长大了。
但我还蛮任性和我行我素的， 所有情绪都写在脸上， 而情绪的起伏又蛮大的， 感觉有点不稳定。
但其实，我也不完全很幼稚，在学业这方面算挺成熟的吧？
如果， 我能在做人处事更圆滑，会比较好吗？
该怎么说呢？ 谁不希望自己走到哪都受人爱戴和肯定呢？
其实，所为的圆滑， 指的是用较婉转或是不易让人查觉的说服技巧来影响别人的行为或决定。
我非常佩服能掌握这技巧的人， 因为这似乎是一种隐形的力量推动这周围的人， 以更快速和方便的达到自己的目地。
这对我而言 ，很恐怖，可能因为自己有点单纯， 所以会害怕被人操控。
小时候， 就常被骗， 感觉很不好受。
就是这使我潜意识，排斥这个长大必上的课程吧。
其实，我能用这具有影响力的计巧 for a good cause, 例如说，鼓励人之类的。
我须要勇气和决心。
爸爸 ，一定要好好保重身体 ，我会为你祈祷，可一定要按时吃药。
但我还蛮任性和我行我素的， 所有情绪都写在脸上， 而情绪的起伏又蛮大的， 感觉有点不稳定。
但其实，我也不完全很幼稚，在学业这方面算挺成熟的吧？
如果， 我能在做人处事更圆滑，会比较好吗？
该怎么说呢？ 谁不希望自己走到哪都受人爱戴和肯定呢？
其实，所为的圆滑， 指的是用较婉转或是不易让人查觉的说服技巧来影响别人的行为或决定。
我非常佩服能掌握这技巧的人， 因为这似乎是一种隐形的力量推动这周围的人， 以更快速和方便的达到自己的目地。
这对我而言 ，很恐怖，可能因为自己有点单纯， 所以会害怕被人操控。
小时候， 就常被骗， 感觉很不好受。
就是这使我潜意识，排斥这个长大必上的课程吧。
其实，我能用这具有影响力的计巧 for a good cause, 例如说，鼓励人之类的。
我须要勇气和决心。
爸爸 ，一定要好好保重身体 ，我会为你祈祷，可一定要按时吃药。
Thursday, October 2, 2008
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
大家好！！
I m gona blog in chinese cuz Chi A'lvel is approaching soon, yah.
For the first time, i realise. Hope that all will enjoy.
I m gona take it as a good chance to further cultivate my passion for chi.
Haha, Vic has been saying she really 受不了华文课。。
But still hopes that ALL including vic will learn to 爱 chinese by choosing a most intimate way where one can be exposed to chi.
So, YOU can enjoy yourself and also strive to work towards an A on ur cert!
how does that sound?
For instance, YOU can practise writing the lyrics of favourite chi POP songs.
我就沉醉在爱情小说里。
最近，读了一本爱情小说，果然是催泪指数100% （书的背面是这样保证着！ ）
有别于我以往读过的爱情小说 ，书中的主要人物显得非常平凡， 也因此也比较真实吧。
所以, 我就不知不觉的深信着 ，没想到 ，故事的结尾，那girl (i cant find this chi word..grr) 还是死了， 就像韩剧，很 cliche.
但还是有touch 到我， 因为这是第一次我被小说感动至落泪，真是的！（quite paiseh)
yah, tat is it. i took quite long to type these few pathetic words. hahahahah
Feeling tired and hungry. will strive to keep up with this good practise..
加油阿， 周诗慧！大家， 一起加油吧！！！！
p.s: 不要笑hor.
For the first time, i realise. Hope that all will enjoy.
I m gona take it as a good chance to further cultivate my passion for chi.
Haha, Vic has been saying she really 受不了华文课。。
But still hopes that ALL including vic will learn to 爱 chinese by choosing a most intimate way where one can be exposed to chi.
So, YOU can enjoy yourself and also strive to work towards an A on ur cert!
how does that sound?
For instance, YOU can practise writing the lyrics of favourite chi POP songs.
我就沉醉在爱情小说里。
最近，读了一本爱情小说，果然是催泪指数100% （书的背面是这样保证着！ ）
有别于我以往读过的爱情小说 ，书中的主要人物显得非常平凡， 也因此也比较真实吧。
所以, 我就不知不觉的深信着 ，没想到 ，故事的结尾，那girl (i cant find this chi word..grr) 还是死了， 就像韩剧，很 cliche.
但还是有touch 到我， 因为这是第一次我被小说感动至落泪，真是的！（quite paiseh)
yah, tat is it. i took quite long to type these few pathetic words. hahahahah
Feeling tired and hungry. will strive to keep up with this good practise..
加油阿， 周诗慧！大家， 一起加油吧！！！！
p.s: 不要笑hor.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Hello!
yeah..i did blog ok! just that i didnt publish it..hehe..*blink innocently again*
Queen Vic said it in a almost half ordering tone: ' go and update the blog'
haha
Seriously, i was imagining myself blogging about what I m feeling recently..to an extent it will be like as if i m repeating..n I wish i can express myself clearly enuff..
There are 4 types of people in this world:
1. People who do not know that they dont know
2. People who do know that they dont know
3. People who do not know that they do know
4. People who know that they know
Which group do u think u r in?
It reali pathetic for grp 3 ppl..becuz of unrealistic fear, stress and pefection paralysis- fear of making mistakes.
Too afraid and is unwilling to look like a fool anymore. Not wanting to try any more in fear of being mocked at.
Or perhaps, it something more. Unrealistic expectation- that so called beautiful dream. Has it become a burden or too much of a difference that one must leap over?
Should i stop dreaming? But wont I lose my motivation in life...and it will not be a pretty scene.
Emo-ing in process? This is simply what i felt.
Well, I m actually not in any state to complain, apparently. I've seen and know of ppl who are bearing with their struggles too..yeah. I seem so much fortunate, so i should be happy. Oh, crap! It like as if i m deprived of my right to be down, emo, and even to cry. We always think we know how people think and feel, or rather we assume and take it as a fact. But I would say no one truely understand what another person is undergoing...hmm..perhaps not even ur loved ones. Perhaps this explains why people do feel lonely even being loved.
this song by: wu jia hui ( hmm, sry that it is not in chi)
entittled yuan zu li ( far distance, ? haha)
我终于开始庆祝自己不去想你 我终于开始鼓励自己不爱你 但思念无时无刻不停歇 活生生像中了你的邪 于是自言自问 自答十年以后 寂寞还是依然 * 猜不透 为何我们距离那么多 永远只是开花不结果 爱了一个人 我赔了自己 又卖了灵魂 猜不透 为何距离总是那么多 不想只是开花没结果 失去你的人 我赎回灵魂 我找回自己 又有什么意义 (有什么意义) 于是我开了香槟庆祝失去了你 把整盒香烟抽完麻醉我自己 但掉落在桌布上的眼泪 嘲笑自己烛光太浪费 于是没有疑问 就算十年以后 寂寞还是依然
The lyric kind of shock me esp this line whn i 1st heard it..very dramatic ( the bolded line)
Actually i've been relatively down these past few months. oh, dun worry..it's nobody fault..cuz it all my fault..cuz i cant be optimistic or finding it v hard too..
Perhaps, it's just growing pain..and this will too pass.
I really wish i can accept this..and continue to move on, irregardless of what i feel and think.
I do love to indulge in such thoughts, don't I? And it maybe a bad habit, i cant kick off. Or it's my nature, now u realise.
Queen Vic said it in a almost half ordering tone: ' go and update the blog'
haha
Seriously, i was imagining myself blogging about what I m feeling recently..to an extent it will be like as if i m repeating..n I wish i can express myself clearly enuff..
There are 4 types of people in this world:
1. People who do not know that they dont know
2. People who do know that they dont know
3. People who do not know that they do know
4. People who know that they know
Which group do u think u r in?
It reali pathetic for grp 3 ppl..becuz of unrealistic fear, stress and pefection paralysis- fear of making mistakes.
Too afraid and is unwilling to look like a fool anymore. Not wanting to try any more in fear of being mocked at.
Or perhaps, it something more. Unrealistic expectation- that so called beautiful dream. Has it become a burden or too much of a difference that one must leap over?
Should i stop dreaming? But wont I lose my motivation in life...and it will not be a pretty scene.
Emo-ing in process? This is simply what i felt.
Well, I m actually not in any state to complain, apparently. I've seen and know of ppl who are bearing with their struggles too..yeah. I seem so much fortunate, so i should be happy. Oh, crap! It like as if i m deprived of my right to be down, emo, and even to cry. We always think we know how people think and feel, or rather we assume and take it as a fact. But I would say no one truely understand what another person is undergoing...hmm..perhaps not even ur loved ones. Perhaps this explains why people do feel lonely even being loved.
this song by: wu jia hui ( hmm, sry that it is not in chi)
entittled yuan zu li ( far distance, ? haha)
我终于开始庆祝自己不去想你 我终于开始鼓励自己不爱你 但思念无时无刻不停歇 活生生像中了你的邪 于是自言自问 自答十年以后 寂寞还是依然 * 猜不透 为何我们距离那么多 永远只是开花不结果 爱了一个人 我赔了自己 又卖了灵魂 猜不透 为何距离总是那么多 不想只是开花没结果 失去你的人 我赎回灵魂 我找回自己 又有什么意义 (有什么意义) 于是我开了香槟庆祝失去了你 把整盒香烟抽完麻醉我自己 但掉落在桌布上的眼泪 嘲笑自己烛光太浪费 于是没有疑问 就算十年以后 寂寞还是依然
The lyric kind of shock me esp this line whn i 1st heard it..very dramatic ( the bolded line)
Actually i've been relatively down these past few months. oh, dun worry..it's nobody fault..cuz it all my fault..cuz i cant be optimistic or finding it v hard too..
Perhaps, it's just growing pain..and this will too pass.
I really wish i can accept this..and continue to move on, irregardless of what i feel and think.
I do love to indulge in such thoughts, don't I? And it maybe a bad habit, i cant kick off. Or it's my nature, now u realise.
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