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Complain Queen SH!

I seriously feel like the cat. Oh..why can't i just stay in the position forever? I'm tired, tired of sch..tired of everything. Feel like dying. I've been just so disgusted by ppl who try to influence me or rather just impose their thoughts on me. WTF!!! I wanted to keep on swearing initially..n I wanted to vent out my anger, but lack a good outlet. Truely, i cant even find time to learn kickboxing, tt i tot would be a good outlet to vent daily frustration. Nor can i shout too, cuz i would scare others with my high pitch? Damn..crying seems to be the only way out, if only it doesnt make my eyes seemingly smaller. Damn Damn. So, I prayed and prayed for a way out of my frustration.

Then, I thought of a method i came across in my favourite book. Write a letter to yourself!! From your compassionate side.!

yeah, indeed, it could well work out. I've many sides that well, perhaps even I cant show or even manage it.

Angelic SH to Complain Queen SH:

Jia you JIa you, ok. Never say die!! ROAR! i do want to hais, as u wish. But well, why not imagine u have time on your side. Pause here. Imagine what you would do right now, if u are FREE?ok, then. Start now. Learn TKD. Spar with the fucking ppl I hate and knock their teeths out. hmm..Fly to beijing and watch the olympics, hopefully with bill ....sitting infront me. Haha. hmm, fly to USA, dreamworks. yah, rob a bank ? Damn, i just wana have all the money in the world. But well, what good will it do? hais. It wont solve the problem in my life.

yeah, indeed. I m seeking for the COURAGE to carry on in my quest. I've been working hard, and so I deserve a break here and them. People, no matter who they are, they just are. BE YOURSELF, hear your own voice and encouragement. Make a forceful proclaim and rmb ur biggest pleasure is to make the world your playground. Though ppl all ard are all highly critical of u..or well, they appear to be so. But arent you yourself highly critical, too? Yeah,u probably realise it. TOO CRITICAL..it's like a adult disease spreading ard..u do stop it in times at times. But it;s taking its toll on you..it kills creativity and the BEA-SILLY SPIRIT.. yeah, so what if u r 18? you can still perserve the child-like innocence within u, while having to learn the image of being a wise and credible young adult.. U knew it, your wants are pulling u apart. Then, just let it go. Return to a state of 0 expectation. Perhaps, not that fast or rather drastic.

Yes, it's just about carrying on the journey, doing what u ought to do: responsibilities. yes, i heard your struggling and groanning this right moment. But well, Push it away. Fill my encouragements in. It's time to let me take over, that well, ahem useless side. Oppms, i forgot i m suppose to be angelic. yeah.. u know..use love to touch the ppl u hate. Oh, well, i mean the devillish side dislikes. yeah, u know the best thing to digust ppl who are mentally imbalance is to treat them with compassion..of cuz genuine compassion. well.. cuz they would have thought to receive the same kind of revenge taken back. n so then, they can accuse u of being rude in the 2nd place; when they are actually doing it in the first place...

Poor sh, u deserve more than a hug. U deserve a $1 million tour ard the world, as well, as a blissful environment of school and home and a all As result slip. Certainly. U've been fighting hard to live up to the expectations and even exceeding expectations of ur family. U strived to be a good leader, inspire and apply creativity in all u do. You nv think twice about challenging the invisible rules in this society. U tried to raise the motivational level in ur cca. U are sad about giving late presents. You actually help to pay for people. You try to encourage ppl, there and then, though u may feel a little run down and confused urself. You always laugh, though when is nth really to be happy about..haha, i knew, to cheer urself up. Yes, u tried to live up to ur own expectations!! Is there anything more important or worthy ?

and u will and will always seek to continue in ur quest for urself, ur truest divine self. Won't you? Though dark, looming fears never fail to exist at the back of ur mind..Even when you seems to be losing ur sanity..or even when others insists u'nv had them..even when u urself seem to be afriad of falling into a bottomless dark pit, even when u don't recongnise urself animore. Even when u start to hate urself.

I trust u. As time will prove everything. It will all be gone. cuz nth stays forever. However, i m determined that your spirit will be for eternal. cuz I believe.

late posting of pictures

Ha, i look funny..still rmb that day at the west coast beach..finally noe how to go, by 175. : ] Can go there to emo in future.

We had dinner together after our performance, before Masturah accompanied me to meet my friend to buy an additional ONE ticket for sajc performance. Thanks, mas! It was a fabulous dinner..got to know ab a number of sizzling facts.

This creativity is done by my mum. Thanks for helping me, cuz i m a real lazy bum. Hmm, all the flowers I've received. Thanks to Rachael ( dance president ), Rachael leo, and my class ppl. :]] The flowers are in good hands!! though not a pretty vase nor a scenic location..But i got a feeling that some flowers have been abused, as i saw my junior who broke the stalk, just by swinging the flower...That was the ultimate joke of the day, as she broke it thrice!!! haX100...

Me, Wendy and Christine. : ]

I didnt look into the camera..!

Yong kit and me. (p.s: sry for not deleting as u requested)

Thanks Rachael for her rose. Omg, it's my first stalk of flower for performance. : )

Me and masturah..hope i have spelled correctly.

hmm now vic here bloggin..hmm i read hui's surprise for me..i am so touched by wad she wrote.. Thanks hui!!! i appreciate wad u did..LOL. YOu are GREAT!!! here some pics we took..fond memories

hui rmb this??? haha 3 shots of u!!!

haha we are millionaires!! hahaha
Rmb this??? haha that BOK... lol...so funny:)

shall end here:)

Delicated to Vic~

It's 5hrs and 33 mins to vic's b'day. And this blog shall be my surprise for her.

Thank god that she is born on this blissful day. Otherwise, how would i be able to meet her in MI? Not to forget her mum, for undergoing labour pains to give birth to her? haha..yea, this is what a friend of mine had mentioned to me b4, and i rmbed it ever since. Cuz while one is celebrating their b'day, it's actually the day where mums' underwent excruciating pain or even torture... of cuz, different mums undergo diff. degree of pain. My point is that we ought to be appreciative and grateful for people all ard us. They don't just exist. There's reasons and at least some kind of efforts behind each person existence.

Ok, i m side-tracking. Back to the main topic. Vic.

I learn a lot from her as i have come to realise that she's really influential to a large extent. How friends ard her and even teachers? have become lame, not literally of cuz. Yah, i begin to laugh like mad in class...Yes, it's all due to her influence. Quite beneficial to laugh as well, life, is boring?.?. It certainly add humour and liveliness to lessons. Kind of works when u r feeling sleepy.

Then again, i tend to do it overboard. Or is she responsible for making me laugh excessively? ha X100. To an extent where i can out of breath and suffer from stomach cramps, and when ppl look at me and say " woah, what happen to shih hui, face all red ?"

As time goes by, i realised there's increased creativity in her seemingly super duper lame jokes, which some may not really apprehend, whereas some find it friendly. And i was able to exercise my so called creativity by laming with her. And hasnt we begin to gather more laming members- lameo??

As the saying goes: screaming inside, smiling outside or smiling outside screaming inside. It depends. This is quoted by a friend.N vic, will be surprise to know who says it. I just happened to rmb it. What is the true way to achieve happiness, by just laughing? I think it's appreciation together with laughing.

At times, i was quite surprised when i got to understand her better. Her family is ranked 1st, she has gastric and small little ailments here and there every now and then. She goes out a lot for her friends, family and relatives. Her concentration level inspires me too..she spends a maximum hours of 6 for math, and it's non-stop. <> And pls, she is an auditory learner meaning she remembers things by voice and sound. I can't. The list goes on...oh, she's also very filial.

We share common grounds and the same short term goals. We are able to do creative/silly stuffs together. We motivate one another. We help one another. There seems to be many intangible values and viewpoint that we have in common, but yet is so subtle to be spoken or described.

She forms a large part of my memories in MI, when i would be old enough to look back at my high school days. We are independable, to an extent that she feels like an family member, even better?!?!

So, let me make a wish for her...is a wish enough?

Wish tt vic picture will be shown in 2 yrs time frm now for our juniors. Wish that vic learns to heal herself from whatever that robs her from her inner peace or health- the ultimate wealth in life. Wish that she enjoys a charmed life and continue to laugh and lame more? ha! oh, she hope to slack in life, right, but yet enjoy high income..Most importantly, may u and ur white knight live happily ever after.

Actually, she's quite contradicting..duno whether her prince is white or dark knight..cuz she likes guys who are tan..but tt's nt for sure, apparently..but that is not the point.

So let's wish that vic becomes more decisive, confident and relaxed, at ease with life.

Lastly, HAPPY B'DAY TO VIC VIC...<3<3<3

Just feel like blogging

No sch tml, but there's dance.

We tried the costume today. Yes, luckily it's tight. But I didnt look as skinny as I thought I can be. hmm. Perfectionist. It's comfortable, i mean the jazz pants. Wish i own that.

I didnt know finding the right and interesting survey qns were that hard. Not really, I know how the mind works. There' must be brainstorming done because great ideas is mostly corrected from the immediate 'trash' ideas. So, it is important. Don't be afraid of making mistakes, cuz there are none.

I also realise that sometimes, I don't really get the point ppl is making. Perhaps, I need to be treated like an 'idiot' just like how u shd treat ur marker by explaining details to me? And state ur point clearly, say crudely if u agree or nt. Thanks.

I seriously love my class and of cuz the jokers in class. Makes me go haha x 100.
rmb this line: laugh your way to As; well it can be A' lvel or the result, or BOTH.
p.s: inspired by someone.

Dad brought durian. OMG, i wish i could eat that but my body is heating up. So must avoid that for the time being until my dance performance ends.

Is feeling dizzy as i type this post. Ought to sleep soon as I m exahusted.

' Black' knight

Dark knight, dark knight. How many times would I then learn from my mistakes?



But oh why?

some mistakes are too fun to make only once. = )



I had hesitations about watching this movie initially. Had a taste of its darkness, fear and 'sickness' during the 2 mins preview. But, I still went for it, and I am glad I did.



Perhaps of the preparedness I had [subconsciously], I feel emotionally detached from Joker. Though, a voice within me was shouting " so cruel" at the scene where he broke the pool stick and gave a selective test, wanting the 2 pathetic guys to kill one another.



I was amazed at the acting skills of Ledger (name of actor who played the role of Joker) . And also his lines. He acted convincingly, capitalising on little details. He is a psycho! as in he has great influence over ppl, through manipulating them mentally- making use of their fears and weaknesses. Hasnt he succeded in twisting Harvey, psychologically? Or is human, just fragile? Take away their most valuable possession, and their spirit falter.



Joker would say: ' they just need a little push'



ok. Enough ab the Joker. Yes, enough. Pls give credit and attention to Batman too.



He's a crusador; fighting for the cause he believes in- Justice. And he's almost lost in the battle with Joker as he plunges into an identity crisis.



yea, when



I was thinking that this movie shows the 'battle' betwee

Lameo day today..here are shihvic pictures...RAndom pictures sia..hahahs

"PC" means..hahaha a secret..only we two know nia

"VS"..cool...2nd one..

last one..:)

Lameo got secretly snapped by Rachel..hahah

hmm that is all for today post..maybe post more lame stuff here ba:) tml maybe anything more to lame..cause too many things to do le..i mean pw and mgt project that need immediate attention